Couple of weeks ago, I came across a posting link on Sargenation.com. It talked about how anxiety in just false belief, conjured up in our heads. The feelings we get when looking at desirable women and how it transformed into fear, hate... negativity. It goes on about these feeling are not real, so we shouldn't let them control us. Anxiety is a false emotion.( I will post a link)
So I read this, and it made me stop and think for couple of hours. Like one of those deep trances you go into after listen to a Hypnotica mp3. I really thought hard about it! I have hated the feeling of anxiety, so much.... I partially lost my mind. So now before I go out I have this routine of reading material pre select to what I feel that needs to be worked on. Till two weeks ago, it was mostly AA. Now I just repeat to myself that these feelings are not mine. This anxiety is false does not exist. I take deep slow breathes count down from 10 to 0. Bring myself to be totally calm and relaxed. Little yoga technique a friend shared with me. I Now can approach with no fear and being relaxed.
In the last two weeks, I have sarge, like I had nothing to lose. I have had several wingman. Opened more then a hundred women in the last two weeks. Its been just been nuts around here in Houston. From Starbucks to the bars and clubs. Tic-Tac-Toe, on the freezers in the local supermarkets, to the napkins in diners at 1 am. It hasn't stopped me! Anxiety that is! Yes, I do get nervous, but my simple, easy and quick solution has made peace with myself. I no longer think about a phone number, kissing or even getting laid. Its pure fun. I have managed to turn my anxiety in to a little game. I now live for the intense fear before I go talk to women. It like a drug that I desire now. To take control of it, and turn it into an advantage.
I can approach women and look into their eyes, and see that they are comfortable with me approaching. Its just that I am so relaxed now. My friends, family... Co-workers even see it. They say I have this little unique grin. Not a full smile, nor a frown. I think you all know that look. They now are always wondering what I am up too. So am I....
Last night, Friday. I pulled couple the guys from my local lounge here in Houston. Good friends of mine. Guys whom I have watch them at the top of their game, and guy who are new to this. But kind of natural, and one with total AA. "Band of Brothers" so call them. We went out last night. grabbed a bite to eat, expecting to do some warm up sets. Which didn't happen. Wasn't a really good place to do warm ups, but we got to chill and share naked pictures of girls whom have texted these arts of social profs. Its kind of funny how that worked out. Well, anyways so we bounced to this club/ bar. HB 8 and 9's filled the room. Yea, but there was over whelming amount of guy there, but they had no idea what we just brought. Are Game! It was on. We stride in like rock stars, skipping the lines, not even having to pay cover. The bouncers introducing themselves to us. It was crazy. My wingman is Russian, and lived in Detroit for the last six years. I don't really know much about him, but just hanging around him, he’s on the level. He’s kind of wild and doesn't take no for an answer, fear he is... he doesn't stumble at all. The other three guy, well I know them for a while. One is so afraid, so I tend open the girls for him, and his looks pretty much do the rest. Mega and Hex are always wingin together. They are really good at their game, but have been out for couple of months. They have dating to many women and no time to sarge. Little rust but always at top of their game.
So, we are rock stars in this place. We get are drinks and everyone just goes their own ways. Myself take up a lock-in position at the bar. Now the bar is packed. So the little space between me and the next guy is about the only place to get to the bar. Its perfect. As I watch from the corner of my, the crowds’ of women just pouring in. They head strait for me. One by one, I open them. Just as they lined up. Before I knew it, I must have had 9 girls talking to me at once. The whole place must of seen this. My friend show back up, and just were stunned about all the girls around. I was right in the middle of cold reading routine. " roller coaster". Same basic idea of strawberry fields or the cube. This went on all night!
I’m thinking here this morning. Could I have been better prepared and brought a girl home? What could I have done to increase the sexual tension? My game is just starting come about. Even thou I know my routines, and much more material than I really need. I find that I need to put order to my game.
I found my next hurdle. Building my own personalized routine.
Now I got to see El Topo lecture on his routine stack. It was interesting to watch and listen to his voice tone and body language. Seeing this, sparked and idea on how I can go about building my personalized routine stack.
Anyone got any other ideas, that might help me put something together not just great, but mind blowing?
